How are you getting on Georgina? I hope you are feeling a bit more yourself?
I’ve just noticed the following sentence in your post
“and then comes along the guilt of allowing myself to feel this week”
OMG the last thing you are is weak! You are strong and doing incredible things! It takes strength to be a Rock and even more to notice your own needs and state! Please don’t feel guilty, you have no need too. You didn’t chose this either and you are doing it anyway, because you love your husband. Love is the most powerful on earth!